The Dinner

It was my first time
In public after DBS
I was not prepared
For this…
For Her….
Across from me
She sits, husband at her side
With her long blond hair
I am mesmerized by the color
Texture, length
the highlights in her hair underscore
The lightness of her laughter
The light in her eyes
With a slight toss of her head
She flips her hair over one shoulder
So arrogant
So noble
So regal
With her long blond hair
Styled–perfect
She represents everything
I used to be
Everything
I don’t have
Everything
Children
Husband
Career
Lightness
Self-esteem and
Long blond hair.