gravitas
“…loneliness is good discipline for realizing the profundity of the unresolved moments of our lives.”
– Pema Chodron
every moment
finishes with longing
its shadow
unresolved
residue
my brain cannot
distinguish
wildfire ash
from
blowing snow
each delicate fleck
something it wasn’t
won’t be
more than
what is falling
who says why
patterns suffer
degeneration
like synapses
gradations
we can only
measure
in absences
the silence
between
extinctions
sudden as
an orbit’s
decay
empty as
a mid-pandemic
jazz club
the end
of crowded
aftermaths
unfinished
neural
improvisations
collapse
every moment
with unresolved
longing
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In the early months of the pandemic lockdown, my wife, Alice, and I took turns each morning reading to each other sections of When Things Fall Apart, by Pema Chodron, the Buddhist nun and teacher. Given the circumstances, it made sense to go deeply within rather than longing to “go out.” We were hoping for some “Heart Advice for Difficult Times” (the subtitle of the book). We found much to contemplate and consider. After we finished reading, I decided to go back through the teachings and look for especially meaningful quotes that could be use as prompts for poems.
The result was published in March 2021 by Turkey Buzzard Press. I’m especially proud to have turned the horrors, anxieties and isolation of the pandemic into something beautiful: a collection of poems. The poems are published in the order they were written and the order of the quotations in Ani Pema’s book. This poem, nowhere, appears early in Sacred Chill. It serves to open wide the spaces I explore and contemplate in the rest of the rest of the book.
Sacred Chill is about Parkinson’s Disease, too, and the constant existential improvisations required as symptoms shift and progress while we hold our life and our self together in a tentative but tenacious unity.
Used by permission of the author.
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